I've got a new life

I've start working since last Monday. - A graphic designer (70%) Account Executive (30%). Initially, I never intend to go into graphic design field at all due to its tiredness of looking at the computer screen all day long. Seriously, my work sucks. I know someone got a suck-ier job than me but i would still like to mention, My WORK SUCKS. Sitting down there keep designing stuff which you don't even intend to draw; which is not your idea; which is not competitive at all.

Finally i realized, why working people always say :"Study is better than working oneeeee, more enjoy leh..." But when goes back to the educational stage, it was like "fuck man! ASS- ignments". But seriously, i love IACT's assignments. Felt so alive when gotten a task to handle.

Here's my working desktop, yeah, damn fucking cool iMac, Pentium Duo Core 2.2 something Gbhz 1.5 gb ram. Whatever you need is in there. In conclusion,

So?



That's the price you're going to work like cow. I think is even worse than a cow, because:-

1. Cow still able to expose to sunlight while I'm NOT.
2. Working environment is like shit. (Robot-like-environment)
   
3. Working hour longer than a cow. ( I don't even have time for my fucking gym!)
4. No career expansion. (or should i say opportunity?)
5. Non-expandable creativity.
   

And yeah. Pentium Duo Core and whatsoever, So what? I can't really turn on Illustrator CS2® and Photoshop CS2® together. It will not hang, yes is cool! But it will automatically close all your unsave applications without notice only. Imagine you can't even do pathfinder in Illustrator; try to imagine how bad was that when you understand what I'm saying. And yeah, 1Gb of RAM expansion cost RM700. Fuck You MAC!

Have to wait for Creative Suite CS3® now and i heard is coming out on Spring. Or else I'm going to keep repeating the Pseudo-Lan-Yeng-Function Key + S to save my job in every squares i drew.

When it's dead, it's dead.

Don't know why, when i look up to the blue sky and white clouds, noting impress me at all.
Don't know why, when i step on dog poo today i don't feel shitty at all.
Don't know why, when i go into design, no inspiration at all.
Don't know why, when i go home, i just feel like busy-ing at all time.

When a thing is grey in colour, is very hard to overlay other colour on it. Because it looks the same (like shit). When my heart is dead, I will be dead like hell. Excuses and apologies will be too late for it. So, i will only say the same old two words, "FUCK OFF!" Don't get sensitive with these 2 words, i didn't scream it out though. This is something to do with internal k?

I HATE PEOPLE DEMAND A LOT! Is good to demand sometimes, especially as a perfectionist like me but i'm not talking about this type of demand. I'm talking about those fuckers who has so many things in life which doesn't need to achieve at all, but still demand so much. Really pissed with this type of fuckers who i can actually list it in Top 10 Billboard Blind-folded Fucking Asshole list. Come on, just say "FUCK OFF!' to this type of people. Pathetic.

I don't want to involve myself with anything towards this type of people anymore. Nevertheless, I won't like/love people who don't even know how to tolerate me, because i know I'm not a person who easily to tolerate with. I'm talking about long term relationships here k? If tolerate, is going to be forever here. Or else just fuck it. I won't be wasting time with this type of people seriously. I'm 22 now and i don't like to play sand.

Always remember, treat people good although other treat you like shit. It is a must to treat your family good.